today was strange! i went to work without wanting to, IT WAS BATSHIT CRAZY. i had 365 customers in five hours :( my own personal record is 366 so i wasn't far off :\ and then at 2pm everyone went home!!!!! the mechanics and my boss as well and i was like omg, don't leave me alone, it's christmas eve!!!! and they still went :\ ahaaha. after lots of christmas wishes though. i whined to my customers ALL afternoon, whined whiiiiined. i loved it. i can't wait to whine tomorrow, wow. except, i don't think i'll have a lot of customers between 12 and 5pm on christmas day lol.

i'm off to a christmas eve party now. also, i am brooooooooke. it's pretty serious i don't think! my bank account has gone maaaad, i mean, it's telling me i have x amount of available money and xx amount of money on my card but the difference does not make sense since i'm supposed to have waaaaaaaaaaaay more than that. i'm supposed to get over $1000 in wages (from both jobs) this week and i only have $90 of available money ad err, $400 is my balance. i think ANZ's gone mad, i'll just wait until thursday and if it hasn't sorted itself out by then i'll contact the bank because omg, i have rent to pay (due tomorrow, lol).

also, westpac sent me a credit card limit increase form. i swear to thor it's the simplest form EVER. all i have to do is SIGN HERE, put it in their prepaid envelope, lick it, drop it in the australia post box when i'm driving past. snddjejlk. watch me do that on thursday :\ meh. i shouldn't! but it's soooooooo simple. all i have to do is sign and give up a little bit of spit! hehehehe.

UM, right, i'm off.




MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERONE :D :D :D

LIFE :|

remember the apartment i applied for and didn't get? well the family from the second block of flats in my unit got it. we have separate doors and they always lock theirs, ours is always open (no intercom, can you imagine what a pain in the arse that would be when people come over? eeep). anyways, they LOCKED THE MAIN ENTRANCE DOOR. LIKE. OURS.

:| :| :|

DID I HAVE THE KEY ON MY KEYCHAIN? NO!!!! why not? because WE NEVER LOCK THE BLOODY DOOR. dudeeeeee. we've had a lot of new tenants over the past 3 years and none of them have been stupid enough to actually LOCK THE DOOR. i mean, HELLO!!! ... i guess it's not their fault because they might have assumed we lock ours too? but i don't think so, they've been living in the second block for like, 10 years, they MUST know we don't lock ours!!!! in fact, WE DON'T EVEN *CLOSE* THE BLOODY DOOR TO START WITH DAMMIT!!! we have a door stopper and everything so that it remains open.


SO BASICALLY, i refused to call the locksmith and instead, went out, did a few things (without coffee, WITHOUT SHOWERING since i'd only gone out to drop my sister off to the laundrette dammit for like 5 minutes!!!) including buying coffee and then came back and waited for one of my neighbours to open the door. #4 turned up and we chatted a bit and she said that the guy who's just moved in #3 does not even HAVE the key to the main doors since the real estate agents never had it.

a couple of years back, they changed all the doors in the block so the carpenters gave the tenants the key. #3's changed tenants so many times since then, i doubt even the last one had a key, O_O. so basically, i wasn't the only one who couldn't get in. so we left a note on the door saying that #1 not everyone has the key so don't bloody lock it #2 don't bloody lock it ANYWAY.


GRRRRRRRRRRR.

NOW I'M GOING TO HAVE A SHOWER AND THEN HEAD OUT TO THE CITY.

*FUMES*

I HAS AN IPOD TOUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!

zomg be jealous!!!!!!

that is all.

p.s. my brother gave it to me.
p.p.s. padfootie, he did not actually wrap it, hehehe, he just left it on the table in the lounge while i went into the kitchen :D

FOUR HOURS OF SHOPPING i did today :\ (and 45 hours i'm working this week, LOLZ, without breaks, in 3 different places please). i have spent an INSANE amount of money in the past 4 hours, it's quite shocking actually. i refuse to look at my bank accounts.

in other news, my sister gave me (among other things) a digi-cam for christmas!!! it's nothing uber super fancy but it takes pictures! lol. it's 5 megapixels so it's not exactly the top of the range but whatever, i'm so not fussy about cameras, i only wanted one that could take fairly decent pics. so definitely expect pictures of my christmas tree when i have a day off next week.

we're not waiting until christmas for gifts this year obviously since both of my siblings are leaving for mauritius next week. my sister's leaving on tuesday (zomg, the apartment ot myself again!!!! i am so exited) and my brother's leaving on friday (he's coming over for the gift giving on wednesday), which as i think i explained before is why i'm so pressed for time with christmas shopping.

i'm also hoping to buy a game console so if anyone could help ...

i don't mean money-wise although i'm totally accepting donations, thank you, my sister's contributing towards it to (as part of my christmas gift) but i have no idea which one to get ... still deciding:

Wii
Xbox360
or
PS3?

the Wii package is the cheapest but i dunno, i kinda like the PS3 best (the hard drive, blu ray, wi fi although i think wii has wi fi too?). i haven't owned a game console in YEARS so i'm a bit out of touch with what's on and what's not.

THOUGHTS ANYONE????

p.s. i didn't go to ebgames (no time) but a quick look at jb hi fi says that xbox360 has the most games, followed by wii and THEN ps3.

christmas shopping done: 0%
christmas cards written: 0%
christmas roster: working christmas eve, christmas day, boxing day
new year roster: working from 7 to 5 on new year's eve, at two different places, working on the 1st in the afternoon, working from 7 to 5 on the 2nd at two different places.

Fails at life Y/Y? :D

i don't have to work on the 1st in the morning though (lol, even i said no to that) so i can still get drunk on the 31st, yaye! right i'm off to write cards! for realz!

i'm not updating because i have nothing much to say, my life goes like this: work, work, work, sleep, work, eat, work, work, work. i'm sure you get the gist :D in other news, right, there are no other news. i meant to write a rant about whoever honked their horn at me for stopping for the bloody tram the other day on racecourse road the other day but i got sidetracked. i couldn't believe it! i know it's confusing because i think that's the ONLY tram stop on that road that's not dedicated so they might not have realised why i had stopped at first glance. then when the tram started moving again, they moved in front of the tram (couldn't tell whether the driver was male or female, there's so much sun/reflection during the peak hour drive back home) so that they're next to me in the other lane and ahaha, we hit a red ligth like, 2 metres later, right? except it's yet another confusing thing on that road (dodgy tram stops, low bridges that trucks get stuck under at least twice a month, disappearing and reappearing bicycle lanes etc etc). they're pedestrian lights and after a red light, they flash yellow and it means you can go if there are no pesdestrians (according to the huge signs anyway) so you can usually tell when someone's not a regular because they wait like idiots until the light changes to green. which the other car did, i could see it in my rear view mirror. asshat wanted me to run over pedestrians getting on/off the tram but wouldn't move at flashing yellow lights. wtf?

my second job is on the other side of the city so it means that i'm driving in peak hour traffic even more than usual now and for longer AND i won't even mention how long it takes me to find parking when i go out these days (THIRY FUCKING MINUTES TODAY, I KID YOU NOT. okay maybe it was 23 minutes, but who's counting). which means that my petrol bills have gone through the roof even more now that the price's gone up so much. blah.

soooo yeah, i haven't had a good week at all, working 44 hours, i have no life!!!11!!! i had bottomsick over on friday, finished decorating my tree on saturday (only took me one week, ha!) and i rushed to highpoint to shop a bit this afternoon (hence the THIRTY MINUTES looking for parking and i tried FOUR different car parks. srsly, cars were parked on traffic islands, it was mad, i had less hassle finding parking last christmas!!!).

anyways, my christmas shopping is exactly 0% done, i haven't written one single christmas card yet and my sister leaves on the 18th so i need to buy everything i'm sending through her by THEN so i can't go shopping at 2am on december 24th dammit!!! my next day off is on the ... 21st? i think. the 21st and then the 27th and err, that's about it. i'm not complaining, i'm hoping to make enough money to buy an iPod touch and a lot of dvds but man, i want my life back. i dunno how long i've got the second job for though but even if i work until 6pm on thursday, by the time i get back to highpoint, find parking, i'll only have one hour for shopping. 2 hours on friday night and that's it! which is not nearly enough, i spent 15 minutes in the jb hi-fi queue today!

i'm cranky cos it's that time of the month. ignore this entry.

okay so i just worked from 9am to 10:30pm non-stop. i'm not even tired lol, i could do this everyday. so yeah, i just wanted to quickly update before midnight and say that i am still alive. will update more abuot the second job probably during the weekend.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

'tis the season and i am excited enough not to bitch about the amount of time it takes me to find parking ANYWHERE these days when going shopping. i will also NOT bitch that it took me one hour and 4 stores to find a decent christmas tree. it's my bloody fault anyway, i was meant to buy it on thursday and have it up on december 1st like everyone else but i got sidetracked by nano and other things. so yeah :\

of course, my sister and i were not the only idiots shopping for trees late. on the other hand, we got it for 40% off! already. it's shocking, ahaha. if i'd bought it yesterday (i was at work, i couldn't have), i would have paid almost twice what it cost me today, O_o.

the reason i don't have a tree is because i spent my first christmas here with roomates who already had one. my second christmas i had to go to mauritius to look after my dad and the third one, last year, i was so broke i didn't leave my apartment for 3 months. i will never forget how broke i was last year. i decided not to buy a tree but i put up decorations though. anyways, i have a tree now and i'm uber excited and i'm listening to punk christmas carols really loud in my car with the windows down :D

....heheh.

i can't stop sneezing today. also, i really hate summer. right, i'm off to do stuff. tomorrow, i'm uploading christmas icons.

p.s. i'll try getting pictures of my tree up in the next few days.

a quick update to say that i'm going to My Chemical Romance tonight as well so if you're going and not trying to get to the barrier or do not want to be in the mosh pit (been there done that in january, don't wanna do it again. i survived the last one, i'm taking it as a good omen and not tempting fate again, lol, especially after 30STM and gyroscope, blah), send me a text message. i'll be there late though, right before the main doors open or slightly after, i dunno yet, it depends on how early i get home from work and where my sister is at that time (she's going as well).

whee!

LOOK! i'm a WINNER! ... except i win nothing but 50 000 words of crap on my hard drive, LOL.



:D :D :D

i still have about 2 and a half chapters left i think ... i'm so tempted to make it shorter now, it will all depend on well, how much i still care about this now that the 50 000 word limit's been reached. i'm also hoping to be done by friday midnight so that i can update my word count on the website again. i dunno how that will go, i have lots of things to catch up on IRL tomorrow and work on friday. we'll see.

if you wanna read my 50 000 and odd words of crap, feel free to fill out this poll. also feel free to say NO, i won't care :D the whole point of the poll is to make sure that only those who've explicitly said they want to read it get to read it. i wouldn't want to inflict that "novel" on anyone else :\

BOSS: hey sarah, can you do me a favour and work on thursday afternoon and i'll work your tuesday afternoon?
ME: noooooo me can't! me has to finish me novel!!!!1111!!!!ELEVEN.

...okay that's a lie. it actually went like this:

ME: sure thing! no worries!

:| :| :| :| :| :| :| :|

the less bad news? it's not final. he says he'll call me tomorrow to confirm, it all depends on how much he's advanced on his paperwork today. blah. and i can't even pretend to write tonight, bottomsick's coming over. yeah. d0000med.

and on top of everything, i'm still siiiiiick. ah life.

I AM STILL ALIVE!


as some of you know, i was sick on sunday. i went to work, barely able to function but being sunday morning and all and seeing that we're so short on staff it's not funny, i went just in case. after about 5 phone calls begging people to come to work, i managed to find two people to cover my shift. so i did not work at all (the graveyard shift guy stayed on while i made the calls). then i returned home and slept it off. i woke up today feeling just as shit as yesterday ... more dizziness, less nausea (possibly because i hadn't eaten anything?) but i had a reeeeeeally bad headache. so i went to see the doctor and he said i had a benign something or other viral infection in my inner ear (i can't bloody remember what exactly in my inner ear was infected). my blood pressure was normal (128/78) but i had taken a happy pill on sunday night which would have lowered it anyway, so i could sleep. he took my temperature and said i had a fever as well.

ANYWAYS, i was given happy pills and told they are extremely drowsy. given how sick i was (the headaches were making me WHINE OUT LOUD and CRY so yeah, it was pretty bad), i took two and fell asleep about an hour later. i only just woke up, i don't think i have a fever anymore but i am still very weak and i don't feel very stable on my feet :\ i can eat now though BUT I CAN NEVER GET BACK TWO DAYS OF MY LIFE. I HATE BEING SICK. do you know how far behind i am ON NANO NOW?! i was meant to finish it today :( i would consider not going to work tomorrow and finishing it (seeing as i have a medical certificate and all) but sadly, i have a horribly expensive spring electricity bill on my fridge and a letter that suspicously looks like my credit card bill on the table so that's not going to happen now, is it? meh! i'm also annoyed cos i didn't manage to call the real estate agent re: apartment application.


at least with my medicare card now, i didn't have to pay to see the doctor. i heard it's $80 these days :| :| :|

AUSTRALIANS! i hope you have voted today!

according to my customers, i'm better off not being allowed to vote, ahahaaha. i've had yet another crazy day. i went to town to do photocopies and it took 20 minutes to find parking!!!! then i dropped off my application at the real estate agent, which is a couple of suburbs away ... but i had stuff missing for my sister (she's only been here for four months, she doesn't have that many points of id but i was told to fax other stuff not on the list so it's all good). so i had to rush back, go to a friend's place, print off stuff and then give them to my sister who then went into town to fax them. then i dropped a friend off work and i was running really late for work myself and was really miffed when i got there and there was no parking where i usually park. i thought, wtf, and then realised that people were voting RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET (err, it's a church but i think it was in the building next to the church ... i didn't know there was a school there!). meh. i managed to find parking and then spent 5 hours serving customers. i'm fucking tired. i had 350 customers in 5 hours and i was working alone and my eftpos sales was $12 000!!!! it was maaaaaad. the fridges were nearly empty, wtf. it was worse because i haven't eaten all day, gaaaaah.


so i'm off to have LUNCH now.

and i thought yesterday was bad? today, i got stuck in traffic for TWENTY MINUTES without air conditioning because of stupid truck drivers who ignore all the BIG, HUGE WARNING SIGNS of the low bridge on racecourse rd. seriously, there are about 5 - 6 signs before you turn on the street and before the bridge itself. and this shit happens ALL THE TIME. i couldn't tell what was wrong from where i was though (just off the intersection, which got blocked anyway) and i called my boss to say i was stuck in traffic and *he* told me it was probably because a truck got stuck under the bridge *again*. yeah so they moved the truck (the driver cabin was low enough to get through but the truck's load wasn't and it was pretty crushed) and then a couple of cop cars turned up and directed traffic through one lane. i drank half of my 1.5 bottle of ice cold water (it was in the freezer, there were ice cubes and everything) while waiting :\

right, i'm done whining, instead, i bring you a happy birthday song boobinflation wrote me :D :D :D :D :D i have permission to post this here, feel free to tell her how awesome it is though :D

warning: song is rated r-ish

Happy Birthday to you!
Though you live in a zoo
And you wank off kangarooooosss!!
Filch still wants to fuck you! (ewwwww!)

Happy Birthday to you!
Potter stinks like your poo!
Snape and Lucius get it on
At night in the dungeons!

Happy Birthday to you!
Dumbledore's old as you...
You even like the same things:
Naked men in G-strings!

Happy Birthday to you!
Filch is thinking of you....(ahem)
You can have him as boy toy
If you leave me Malfoy!

Happy Birthday to you!
There's nothing you can do
Rabid at twenty-three-ee
Worse than dear ol' Voldy!

Happy Birthday to you!
Hufflepuff through and through!
You should live in a zoooo
Where I can laugh at you!

Happy Birthday to you!
This time I think I'm through
Snape is calling me to bed
To do THINGS to his head....(slurp!!)

i think i laughed for about five minutes at the mental picture of dumbledore leering at men in g-strings, *giggles*

right so um, melbourne weather, you're not funny. you know how bloody hot it is today? like 37 degrees C/99 degrees F hot, that's how hot it is. we went out and everything and nearly died from the heat AND THE FLIES (there's nothing like melbourne flies in summer, nothing) and it's aggravating because it's SPRING for fuck's sake and it's not supposed to be his hot! anyways, we all but ran back home but it's unfortunately hot inside too so i've got the fan on and it's a little bit okay but i doubt i'll be able to sleep easily tonight :\ meh! same thing tomorrow apparently, i will diiiiiieeeeeee.

ANYWAYS, my sister tells me to tell you that she spent alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll (to the power of infinity) of her wages on my birthday gift: hehehehehe, I HAS A KNEW FONE! it's a nokia 2630, black, sliiiiiiim (love it) and sleek and i named it AlbusSeverus (so that everyone who turns on their bluetooth when mine's on can see the name, i'm such a nerd). it's got bluetooth (which means that my background is SEVERUS SNAPE, TEE HEEE HEEEE, i keep staring at it!!), mp3s but i haven't transferred anything yet, camera (pictures + recording), radio and teh internets! eeeee. she gave it to me right after midnight so i didn't go to bed until like 1.30am as i was busy trying all the ringtones, taking random pictures etc. i think my neighbours hate me.

pretty exciting! i haven't had a good phone since ... well ... um ... ever. hand me down phones are really crappy, especially when it comes to batteries.

yeah so um, today's my birthday and my brother and his partner are coming over for dinner tonight (they're bringing food) and i suppose i should probably post my err, theme song here since everyone's singing it ot me ANYWAY (but only the part where it goes "nobody likes you when you're 23" ... jeez, you guys are supposed to actually tell me you all love me or something, not agree with the statement!).

What's my Age Again - Blink 182


I took her out it was a Friday night
I wore cologne to get the feeling right
We started making out and she took off my pants
But then I turned on the TV

And that's about the time that she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
What the hell is ADD?
My friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

Then later on, on the drive home
I called her mom from a pay phone
I said I was the cops
And your husband's in jail
This state looks down on sodomy

And that's about the time that bitch hung up on me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by prank phone calls
What the hell is caller ID?
My friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in Freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me?
My friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?

That's about the time that she broke up with me
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that on me?
I never want to act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?
What's my age again?



MEH!

i swear i'm still alive.

it's just that Nanowrimo and job hunting are eating my soul. add melbourne weather and flies to that (DOUBLE GAH) and you have me not updating and skimming my friends page.

i turn 23 tomorrow, it's depressing as hell. i'm hoping people IRL will forget, i haven't spoken to my brother since wednesday so he wouldn't nag me about parties and celebrations and such. i say it every year but i fail to see what there is to celebrate. getting a year older? blah. my sister reminds me everyday that i am nearly a quarter of a century old (the bitch, she's still a teenager, she doesn't know the pain!) and looking at my life, i wonder if i'm *ever* going to do anything with it. time flies and all i do is watch tv and go to a brain-dead job. yeah. a quarter of a century. *sighs*


in other news, i met a couple of mauritians at work yesterday. they were speaking french but i could tell it was mauritian french and not french french or canadian french or whatever. i asked them if they were mauritians and they said yes and switched to french (which always tends to bother me, at least ask first!!) and then she was like "how long have you been here?" (in french) and i said 4 years and she went 20 years. i might have O_Oed because she barely had an accent whereas my aunt can barely speak french properly and speaks creole with a heavy accent. and then she commented on how there weren't a lot of mauritians where i work (essendon) and i thought, um, no, not particularly, not quite understanding what she meant until she explained where she lived ... i'm not naming names but it's one of THOSE suburbs i refuse to even go near. call me prejudiced or whatever but the mauritians who live there freak me out. i was warned against them when i first arrived but then i errr, witnessed it first hand when lagitane came here on holidays and stayed in those suburbs and my thor, these people live that they used to live in mauritius, BACK THEN. :\ it's a little bit shocking and they ALL know each other and all hang out with each other and get married to one another and i don't even know if they ever speak english. yeah so she said that where she lives there are mauritians everywhere (and the whole conversation was in french too, her french's better than mine! *facepalms*).

anyways, i should have kept my mouth shut. it's just that i didn't expect to see someone like her in essendon i suppose. the other mauritians i'd met at work were generally around my age and did NOT switch to french without asking! (and didn't comment on the lack of mauritians around, wtf, we're in australia!!!).

christmas is around the corner and everyone and their mother's going on holidays so we're training a lot of new guys at work (i feel so sorry for them, ahaha) and one of them asked me: "so how many months have you been working here?" and i replied: "THREE *YEARS*?" that's really pathetic. i also told him that and that i will hopefully find another job soon. or i might go insane-R.

i saw Across the Universe last night, i have been listening to the soundtrack since then. my sister says she's gonna kill me (or possibly herself) if i put it on once more. well, it's either that or my Punk/Rock Christmas songs, so yeah.

i'm only updating because the heat has fried my brain and i can't write. dammit.

this is just a quick update to say that Muse last night was awesome :D i'll try to update more later when i have time, i went to bed late, woke up late so i'm running late for work. i bought one tshirt, one singlet (which i have forbidden my sister to even THINK of trying on because she's like size 14 and i'm size 8 and it's just not on! she tried the tshirt though, she also bought one herself but it's a different one and it's too big for me.) and pins. i totally blame tshirtgirl for the pins :\

#6's moving out. the noise is TERRIBLE but the 3 bedroom apartment is listed already for $250. i will miss the open inspection so i'm a little bummed about that. ... am gonna try talking to them when i go out for work later to see if they'll let me visit it before the move but i'm not sure how that will happen since well, i'll be at work. i know J more or less well, we used to get the same bus to work back in the days when i didn't have a car. the other guy, i totally forgot his name but i generally see it at 6:30am when we're both going to work so we don't generally talk (it's more like hi/bye) and he's usually on his bike with the helmet and all.

i'm also a little down cos $250 is cheap for a 3 bedroom apartment, the cheapest actually in this area and I STILL DON'T HAVE A JOB. well, not a real one. i could probably afford $250 a week on my salary and my sister will contribute once she gets back from her holidays in february and gets another job (don't think maccas will quite like her taking a 2 month holiday, LOL). of course, having visited most of the apartments in this block, they've all had issues, just like my one. also, none of the other ones have renovated kitchens. they're really dodgy and old and the cupboards look like they'd be a perfect nest or whatever for ants in summer (which is already here, is this where i bitch about the weather? tshirtgirl and 5245454 other people who were queueing for muse witnessed my summer allergies first hand yesterday. man it was bad, the FLIES, the SUN, the DRAMA. i had to scratch my nose for at least 15 minutes. *sighs* and i had zyrtecs at home! grrrr).


i'm a little bit behind on Nano so i'm gonna try to catch up in the next few days hopefully. i also need to, in the next week or so, burn a lot of dvds, find a job (LOL), buy a christmas tree (yaye!!), watch across the universe, start buying gifts for mauritius, get salazar washed, pay off my car car bill. i think that's it. i'm so broke. anyways, i'm off now.

i'm having a crappy day :\


i haven't heard anything from the job and it's been two days. if they'd wanted to hire me, they would have done so already, don't you think? they're prolly busy interviewing more competent candidates as i type this. meh. instead of sitting in front of the tv, i should be applying for other jobs already but i can't be bothered today.

i had to wake up at 2am to pick my sister up from work. she insisted that she could walk home alone, at 2am, in footscray, LOL. yeah right, as if i was gonna let that happen. to make things worse, i was trying unsuccessfully to catch up on Nano earlier on and was too tired for some reason but then i started writing and couldn't stop so i went to bed at like, half past midnight, woke up at 15 to 2am, went to pick her up, went to the nearest 24 hour servo and then came back home. i couldn't fall asleep again and then i had to wake up at 6am, it was awful!

worked sucked, it was busy as usual, even after petrol went up to $1.42. i got my car serviced and that was $132 with the staff discount, they had to change some transducer thing or other, i didn't even bother asking them to explain it to me, i'm so car stupid that i only learned today that apparently, number plates have lights/globes and that's why my warning light was coming on when i turned the headlights on (i tried everything, got my sister to press down on the brakes, looked at all the globes and couldn't find which one wasn't working).

i came home, changed, dropped my sister off at her exam at the showgrounds, went to jb hi-fi to get Harry Potter and the Order and the Phoenix on DVD and ended up buying Clerks II/Dogma as well and resisted the temptation to get Hot Fuzz/Shaun of the Dead hoping that someone will give it to me for my birthday. i should point out that i am completely broke again and really shouldn't have bought any dvds at all.

then i had to drop by bottomsick's sick to make sure she's alive because she lost her phone and her mum's worried sick. she wasn't in but i was prepared so i left a message for her with one of her roomates. i swear to thor, i went there and the door was wide open. the security door was closed but unlocked. i actually just walked in. aahha, i guess i kinda forgot what it's like living in a house/townhouse. i'd never leave my apartment door unlocked, EVER.

then i came home and watched all the special features on the HP5 DVD. most of it was insanely boring (i think we saw SVA more often that daniel radcliffe, and i linked to f_w directly cos every other entry is about him anyway so yeah), the deleted scenes were exactly like the various hp websites said they would be (boooring, no snape!) but the tonks segment was pretty cool. i didn't try the dvd-rom features.


oooh and i had the best drive home ever. Triple J had a 30 minute Muse segment on JUST as i was leaving work! muscle museum live and everything, i was sooo singing along out loud in the car. thank thor i didn't get stuck in traffic that often ;) (my windows were down too). i'm so excited to see them again tomorrow :D :D

that was the only positive thing about my day. now i'm off to watch shows, write a bit, try not to pass out from lack of sleep and generally self-pity about my pathetic life and how i don't have a real job yet without actually doing anything about it. YAYE.

i have been absent lately because i've been busy balancing work, life, writing nano AND looking for jobs. the latter's been very depressing. several reasons:

well, no one wants to employ me! it's really frustrating knowing you would be good at something and not be given a chance. everyone i know (and i don't mean friends, i mean managers and lecturers) is so praiseful and they think i should be able to find a job without any fuss. ahahaha. well, i barely even get to the interview process now, do i? it bothers me a lot, especially since the non-friends who graduated at the same time as me have jobs and are moving up the career ladder while i am left feeling like a loser. it didn't use to bother me but it's been a year since i finished my degree and well, who the fuck's gonna employ a graduate with no work experience after one year, you know?

i know i'm not doing anythign wrong at interviews, i got good feedback for that. and i understand that it's hard finding the kind of jobs i want, what with half of them being government jobs that only citizens can apply for. that's cool so i moved on, even though i was so close a couple of weeks ago with that reporting analyst job. i told myself, fine, i'm willing to settle but a lower pay than what i am getting now and work for banks/finance companies. except now no one will even let me apply because i'm not a resident yet. it's a little bit worrying because as i understand it, there are lots of people in australia who are neither residents nor citizens but hold work permits (like i currently do). not to mention that there's this new visa now which gives you a two year work permit (and residency if you manage to find a job within that time), LOL, a bitch of a catch22 there, good luck to these people.

i think i'm really down because everyone i know have already got a job and are doing fine, you know? but also, because well, with what happened a few weeks ago, i know i *can* get a really good job, in my field so why should i be settling for less? seriously guys, i went to see a recruiter on monday and my thor, she only asked me questions about my job at Mobil. i thought that was fishy. i usually only get asked a thing or two about it but the whole bloody interview was about my job at mobil. then she was like, why do you want to leave mobil?

I'M SORRY BUT WHAT KIND OF A STUPID QUESTION WAS THAT? O_O. no other recruiter had ever asked me that (but i had never seen a finance recruiter before, i'd only been to the executive/economics ones), at least not in the way she meant it. so i explained (DID I AHEV TO?!) that i wanted to move into the corporate world because i find that my lack of corporate experience was a hindrance to my career progression, that i needed a break somewhere so that i could do what i wanna do in the long run. and she actually told me that i was wrong, that she was very impressed by the sheer amount of customer service i have (i might have strategically forgotten to mention to her that i slowly kill half of my customers in my mind when i'm smiling to them and saying thank you) and that would be very helpful.

i was like, "UM, WHAAAA?" because it was such a contrast to the recruiter J from the job i didn't get recommended. she was like: "you need ot get out of Mobil, you're not using your brain at all there!" which made me laugh and nod and agree whole-heartedly. anyways, i didn't like her one bit! she PHOTOCOPIED MY PASSPORT, how freaky was that?!?! there's such a difference between those industries ... i've never been asked to show any proof of id or transcripts in any of the executive interviews i've been to. it was kind of a hard contrast and i felt like grabbing my passport and running away.

so anyways, she said that the best she could do for me was Temp jobs, $20/hr (which is less than what i get now), rotating shifts (pain in the arse) and they'll just love me at call centres (you'd be sniggering if you'd heard me deal with call centre people before, although she meant inbound mostly, but then again, you'd still be sniggering if you read all the entries where i bitch about calling 1300 numbers). sure enough, not even half a day later, i get a prospective job offer from another recruiter (which i prolly would have gotten had i tried since it was just a customer service role, no 15424 interviews require), call centre, inbound for a bank, temp role. then i'm asked if i have my pr (which is another wtf these days, hardly ever get asked that for exec jobs and whenever i do, they don't generally care as long as i have a valid work permit) and i said no and she was like, no can do, banks asks for pr now.

TEMP. ROLE. WTF?

so yes, that's why i was feeling pretty ... well, you know, i wasn't very happy on monday. still not happy, i really hope i get my PR soon. and i will say something political ... i remember in one of my economic policy classes, the australian born students agreed that immigration was unfair job wise because immigrants take jobs that would have gone to them otherwise. i'll just say something, that's utter bullshit, given the the amount of obstacles i am facing because i am an immigrant, at least in my particular field, if i get a job and they don't, it's because i doubly deserve it i think. i mean, look at graduate programs ... can't apply, not a resident. not only that but iwould have had to apply last year, when i only had a student visa, which would have been even worse.



*sighs* i suck at life so much. i knew this would happen when i finished uni but man, i didn't know it would be this bad.

v.v.v. quick update.

#1 there has to be a special place in hell reserved for people like me who handwrite gay porn at work. yes. i did it. i did it, i put the pen down in the middle of a sentence, served a customer looking at them straight in the eye and then went back to writing. i felt like such a pervert.

# i was so bored at work that i actually decided to write more of my "novel". i mean, besides the gay porn, which i only wrote for about one hour (with a few customers). i also wrote about 800 words in a two hour period (which customers, pausing to actually work - clean etc). it was NOT BUSY AT ALL! i was so surprised, i thought it would be mad. it was weird.

# someone told me "blow until i tell you to stop" and i did. ( context )

# the only interesting thing that happened today was that the ATM broke down twice. this led to two different group of people turning up to fix it. the first group, the security guy guessed i was from mauritius and talked about seychelles for a while (go figure). the second group, well ... i had just finished writing porn. and they turned up and made gay jokes. I DIED. the security guy was all: "the gun's to protect YOU, not th emoney. we don't care about the money." and then the engineer said something like: "now's the time to love me and leave me" and the security guard went: "did you HEAR THAT?" and i don't remember all of it but the engineer made a joke that implied that he'd be the top and i was just dying from fits of giggles by then. :D

# Efficient won the melbourne cup ... OH WAIT. no one cares. HA. (i did care though when F rang me from Moonee Ponds, excited because she'd won $110 for betting FIVE FUCKING DOLLARS on efficient. meh.